on Sunday, October 17, 2004
today think is perhaps the only day i update my blog in the day ba.
went for grading this morning.
it sucks.
morning saw him.
hurhur. no reaction.
my mind went in a total blank during the grading.
i cannot rmb anythi but during training i remembered.
kept looking at melissa.
sparring also sucks.
wat shit is this?
life sucks.
lurve hurts.
mind went blank already bad enuff.
doing the pattern halfway sae he was at the back looking.
jus behing me.
ohmigosh.
before that he was dunno at where lor.
couldn't concentrate at all.
the jumping front sucks.
during practice was even better.
now dunno can pass or not lor.
sure fail. do wrongly.
think he also got a lot of problems ba.
saw him sitting at the chair there like so depressed and stress out.
hurts to see him like that.
after i got graded immediatly he went to take command ler.
wat is this?
i doing he dun wan take command.
stand behind look.
i finish he go take command.
ku yi or wat de?
today dunno like bo sequence de.
all anyhow go de.
dunno what the hack is going on lor.
sat at the back can clearly hear his voice among so many's pple voice.
ka jie say his voice nice sia.
haha. stirred up all the memories.
those day when we tok through the nite.
san gen ban ye.
last yr. 19th oct.
tok till 2 plus he still dun wanna slp.
next day some more got practical test.
i really fu le ta.
next morning mus 6am wake up lor.
he was like so 'irritating'.
say morning wake up ler mus msg him.
early in the morning flood my inbox with those sweet msgs.
after sch wan to come find me.
msn also flood.
in sch kept calling and msging. some more that time hp not allowed yet.
miss those days.
i rather he b that 'irrtating' than to b so cold.
even remember 23rd oct 2003.
he wanted go watch movie.
but jolin went for op.
promised will go visit her.
and i ps him.
those days.. so locked yet so sweet.
everythi abt him is still in me.
is there anyway to forget everythi?
brainwash?
he already forgot me..
i'm jus nobody.
nobody to him..
chris and karen even also very cham.
do pattern dunno how many times.
he took command for them.
chris did wrongly then he hint her.
but think she din get the hint ba.
he also cannot make it so obvious.
examiner beside him only.
wan him to die ar.
but from his eyes can tell lar.
haix. we went in front to look at them.
but i found myself looking at him more than them.
isit me or did i realised that he was also looking?
perhaps i think too much ba.
he can b looking at somethi else or day dreaming away.
dreamer.
din want to leave that place.
chong pang cc.
once leave dunno when is the next time can see him.
walk walk walk. hurhur.
who knows?
he ride bicycle past us.
i stunned tio.
blur blur dunno wat to say or do.
then chris was like u nv shout this is human walking path not bicycle riding path.
got tounge tied.
words din really come out smoothly.
by the time it came out he was already gone.
he nv looked back at all.
not at all.
he did not had any expression
+expression-less+
he jus went on and on.
riding further and further away.
everythi was long gone.
his fierce face.
cute smile.
sweet talk.
scoldings.
everythi...+gone+
went acarde.
saw the pooh bear.
so cute. wanted it but could not get it.
so many try still like that.
sit the machine also dun find it scary.
wanted to shout also cannot.
daytona also like nth already.
bam bam als not there.
king of fighters the machine. hah! nth
wan to bang also cannot.
felt like crying everythi out at that time.
the world seems to b going against me.
i lost my support.
he used to b there for me.
last yr.
one yr going to pass like that ler.
19th oct.
i'll nv forget this day.
last yr got my sucking results he was there.
so nice so sweet so caring.
i told him i was in the foul mood.
dun come near me.
later kana shouted at.
he din mind.
he was still there.
da biao ge's 2nd son got bone narrow disease.
the whole fam was very depressed.
din had the mood to tok.
he understand.
he was so understanding.
lways there when i needed him.
but now.. he's no longer there.
i've to face everythi myself.
i feel so gulity.
i wasn't there when somethi happened to him.
he jus gave me the cold shoulder wanted me to leave him alone.
i tot he wanted to study for his exams but after the exams he was still like that for a certain period of time.
only much later he came to apologise saying that somethi happened.
did not want me to worry so he kept away from me.
he made me so gulity.
he was there yet i wasn't.
he can be one great guy.
but now...
he is still a great guy, the most wonderful guy in my eyes.
but that great-ess and wonderfull-ness he has wun be giving it to me anymore.
someone else will get it.
btw, chris, thanks for the pooh.
i love it.
hope that somemore could treassure him.
the guy full of problems yet will not tell anyone.
the guy who keeps everythi to himself.
the guy who always tries to make everyone around him laugh. his cute laughter.
smoothening your ruffled up hair
2:48 PM <3
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on Sunday, October 10, 2004
today ar?
dunno is say wan to cry or wan to luff.
went to jj lin jun jie's mini concert plus signature.
vip tickets. hohoho
so darn darn darn happy!!!
get to see his real person.
so darn cute.
that time saw him at sakae only a while nia.
this time is like wooo...
he's so damn damn damn cute!
his dimples r like.
ohmigosh.
took tons of photos of him then also got video cam loh.
haha. kai yin nv bring cam. =X
got 5 pple went to the stage and sing with him.
4 ger 1 guy.
haha the guy sort of won then got hp as a price loh.
nokia 3220.
lin zhi was the zhu chi ren.
she ask jj to sing eng song.
he was like ar? this nv an pai de you mei you.
in the end he sing happy birthday and christmas.
lolx. bth.
got those 'goodie bags' loh.
but only LIMITED.
the posters also.
*&^$@#$%
nv get anythi
he sang jiang nan, dou jiang you tiao.. and others also la.
the most madding and sadistic one haven come loh.
they say he only sign his sg original verison of his cd
and no taking pics on stage.
guess wat?
my cd not sg verison.
kns. @#^*%&(^&%#^%#
so madding!
went cine shops and find, dun hav.
go hmv also dun have.
wa piang.
tian zhu ding dun wan let me hav his singature loh.
some more those who let him sign get to shake hands with him!!!
ohmigosh.
why i so sway.
haix. wanna cry le.
sobx. jj lin jun jie..
my dear dear lao gong. =x
pao tang le.
**cries**
and hor also dunno wat is going on with this freaking blog.
the words below all go missing.
links also dissappear. -.-
arg. whatever.
wait for it to shuang than come back up ba.
lin jun jie.. i'll wait for ur next mini concert de..
sobx...
smoothening your ruffled up hair
8:29 PM <3
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on Friday, October 08, 2004
hohoho.
attention everyone..!
today's
CHU ZEN'S BIRTHDAY!!!
8th october!
sheryl, jane, xinyi they all gav her an eeyore.. so cute!
ok, today su and i bought our digi cams to sch took lota photos.
all sort of funny funny pattern sia.
now than i know when i dun smile is look so lian de. -.-
in class even in the toilet.
starting is the gers' toilet all sort of stupid face and expression.
wahahaha. so funny sia.
after that we went to the boys' toilet loh. so siao.
but no pple inside la.
we went in took a pic than came out le.
wahahaha. =x
than in the canteen met jane and xinyi
took a lot of pics too.
bth. but val went off her first.
her daddy came to pick her. haix.
somemore drive into the sch compound sia.
oh yah. mus rmb to upload than send the photos to them.
haha. than went to lot1 ljs to eat lunch loh.
kinda late le.
take pics till so late.
pro hor? wahahaha.
dunno how come eat le like so full.
funny sia.
after that guess where we went?
orchard.
siao eh. so late le still go orchard.
we spent a long time deciding loh. bth.
outside summerset [ok, i dunno how to spell] mrt got this malay ger suddenly stop us we shock tio continue walking.
haha. only later than explain she is a volunteer etc. donate money de la.
got donate loh. for the orphange.
she even wished chu happy bd.
so cute sia she. noe how to speak chi de.
woooo.. interesting.
went heeren. walk walk walk.
orchard practically bo students de loh.
only alot of cresentian.
other than that practically empty.
all having exams, stay at home study and we're at orchard.
hurhur. slacking.
slack for 3 days le.
wed go ah yi's hse.
thurs went lot1 till ard 6.30.
today orchard.
hurhur. too pro le. =x
went to take photos.
haha. same la. those heeren new-est machines.
most in the of cox. haha.
can chor chor de. hehe.
very nice loh.
so happy. also alot of pattern de.
than chu's mummy call.
wa. shock tio. first time.
haha. her dad looking for her.
firece sia. wan her to go back now wor.
scary.
after the pics went back le loh.
so many pple.
all office pple.
wanna kana squash.
than in the mrt hor.
got some funny funny thgs happened loh.
dun wanna say la.
bao xiao.
reach home kinda late le.
haha. next week eng exam le.
so fast. slack so many days.
now mus go back studies le.
haix. nvm la. we already plan wat to do after the exams already afterall.
the stretch of exams haven even start we already plan wat to do after it.
haha. nvm. this is call how to enjoy life.
mus enjoy life u know. blehx. :b
smoothening your ruffled up hair
9:39 PM <3
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on Thursday, October 07, 2004
wa. sianz. today the assembly so long sia.
sit there so boring wanna zZzZ.
hahaha.
got the vip, merit and singna award thgy.
than bcox of that thg we had a very late lunch loh.
3++ i guess.
haha.
oh yah, today at the yew tee there saw this shuai ge.
at first saw his side view nia. wa. very yandao.
got abit of toro de feng wei.
his eyebrown, nose.
ohmigosh.
**faint**
i tell ah chu, she also say yandao.
we somemore walk go the other side c his actual face sia.
siao liao. haha
su hui, val they all also say yandao loh.
than went lot 1.
had the longest lunch ever.
than got one ger dunno how old.
look kinda young wear till so jappy with a guy keep staring at us.
bth.
than went to walk loh.
saw lopez with his mummy.
went to eat sakae sushi.
hao ming sia this guy.
went to buy a shirt.
haha. pamper myself.
shopping gd way to fa xie too.
haha. ok whatever.
than someone ="(
not bcox sad or wat loh.
is scare till than luff than cry.
siao charbo.
i dun wan to say who la.
that person wan to admit or not er up2u la hor.
got the feeling so long nv like that walk lot1 le.
like so long nv go shopping.
hahaha. can stay at one shop for dunno how long loh. =X
did a lot of lame stuffs.
luff here luff there.
machiam siao char bo.
haha. walk till ard 6.30pm.
pro sia. all slackers.
ytd slack, today also slack.
tml ah chu bd also slack!
wa piang. pro sia us.
PS: REMEMBER! TML CHU'S BD. DO ALL U WAN TO HER. HEHE. =X
smoothening your ruffled up hair
10:11 PM <3
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haix.
had a werid dream last nite.
very blurry but he was inside.
in fact he was the 'main character'.
dreamt that i was outside with someone.
who i can't rmb le.
than he suddenly called me say want to meet.
asked me to go to dunno where to meet him.
mus take bus de.
budden me and my fren dunno how to go than he told us wat bus to take and the directions.
where to alight etc.
i rmb met him but for wat i cannot rmb anythi.
than at nite he called me.
tok alot of crap.
than suddenly say wan to jio someone.
than ask me for advice.
diao. so hurt.
wan to jio jus jio somemore ask me for advice.
wart sort of dream is this man.
ridiculous.
and the best part is the ger turned out to be melissa.
melissa teo.
interesting?
haha. than the next day, early in the morning he called me.
jus like wat he used to do long ago.
felt so mixed.
happy he called but sad it was bcox of someone else.
bcox of a ger he wanna jiosuch a werid dream.
there r actually more to it but i jus cannot rmb.
everythi seems to b so short and.
dunno how to say.
blur?
its history after all.
totally impossible.
everythi is jus my wishful thinking.
he's gone and will nv come back.
smoothening your ruffled up hair
7:43 PM <3
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on Wednesday, October 06, 2004
phew~ finally. tml no test. for the past week [from mon] uptill today everyday test loh. w/o fail. everyday at least got one paper. zhong yu tml got one day bo paper de. yay..! haha. can slack abit le. wahahaha. today the maths papaer.. haix.. dun say le la. kana cheated. jus now came home bathe than when ah yi hse makan. wa. her cooking rocks. yum yum.! >.< hehe. than went to the rascal's room lie on his bed and read comics. read halfway aslp. haha. too tired le. also nobody call me wake up. -.-'' until dinner time ahyi came into the room ask me go makan. wa. si-pro. whole afternoon nobody kajiao. the rascal also nv call me. ahahaha. xie tian xie di. gimme back the slp i lost for the past few nights.. =XxX
smoothening your ruffled up hair
8:12 PM <3
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on Saturday, October 02, 2004
**yawn** me nort enuff slp sia.
vien vien say i nv update blog.
haha. now update let her see wor.
ytd chi exam. i repeat EXAM. YEAR END EXAM.
ok. i'm being lame.
who doesn't know its the yr end exam?
except for those who arn't in uss than dun say larhx.
kinda easy loh.
still to think that we studied so hard and panicked so much over it.
at least it is easier than the chi test.
that wad freaking hard.
after the test waited for su hui & val.
went to watch art of the devil at jp.
me, chu, su. val n xiu.
ohmigosh.
that movie is so damn gross loh.
abt a lady wantin to take revenge on the guy who played her.
using black magic.
jus one strand of hair can do everythi.
yew. so scary.
the pple throw out blood, rot to death, i really mean
ROT. with maggots and all that. yuk!
but the ger in the movie kinda chio lehx.
nan --> the good one.
boom --> the bad one.
val even say nan's mom look like FIR de faye.
ohmigosh.
nan's mom looked so.. erm.. horrible?
i mean she was like dying, throwing out blood.
and val said she looked like faye?
hurhur. so interesting loh.
well, we screamed thru the movie larhx.
obvious we were the noise-ist right?
but i say first loh.
me ish scare still wan to c those type loh.
treat it as dis-stressing la.
so stress loh exams.
the ger looked so scary.
than the guys behind very disiao loh.
say wat jin mao meimei.
ohmigosh.
i dun wan to write movie review loh.
later say i can go b moive review editor le.
say my review so long.
read my blog can know the entire movie le.
than after the movie hor.
wahahahaha. val almost held a guys hand thinking that was xiu.
wahahahaha.
all of us pao xiao loh.
oh yah, b4 the moive right.
we left val's dictionary on the chair and went out do somethgs.
come back her dic gone.
got one grp of guy took it.
wahahaha.
when val went to ask for the dic back the guy was like so paishez.
beginning i somemore say dictionary who wan to take sia. -.-''
after the moive went to buy a pencil case.
got embarressed by su hui loh.
no nd to announce i was taking a.. pencil case right?
ohmigosh.
but nvm. val has it anyway. jus another colour.
i was jus despo at that time.
i hav another one now. **faints**
after that almost 7 le.
the gers went back i went to aunty doris's hse.
c that small ger, jus came back from china.
so cute. so much pattern loh.
ask her to biao yan. haha.
her chi pronouncation.
ohmigosh. so biao zhun.
with all those actions.
someone got dunno wat japanese took her doll than the communist came and got it back for her.
alamak.
3 yrs 9 mths old only loh.
c her do all these dunno wan to luff or wat loh.
her childcare at china hor.
really ish ignts.
watched hi-5 with her.
than the aunty all so happy.
they can watch their own show.
i hav to acc her.
but nvm la.
she sooooo cutteee.
than spent the nite at godma's hse.
kinda scary.
i alone in the room with a king size bed.
ohmigosh. the movie kep flashing.
but also went to slp easily la.
tired wor.
study so hard the past few days.
mus learn to take back all my slp n relac you mei you.
but as if.
i also din get to slp long.
early in the morning that ger came kajiao me.
dun let me slp.
say wanna go taka do dognut. alamak.
went taka loh.
walk here walk there.
acc her. machiam her babysitter.
haha. but later godma they all c i so tired.
kept yawning ask me go home orh orh.
wahahaha.
took a taxi home.
slept in the taxi.
yawn.
now i thinking tonight how am i gonna slp.
nvm la.
me so pro in slping shouldn't b a prob.
now at home n relax le.
wahahaha.
oh yah. ah yi call go her hse.
almost forgot.
nvm. later tell mummy.
haha. that's all le ba. so long de update le.
dun say me nv update le wor. =X hehe.
smoothening your ruffled up hair
3:36 PM <3
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